Becoming the Woman I Pray For: My Season of Self-Discovery, Discipline & Trying New Things
I'm Finally Getting Consistent...In Every Area Of My Life
The Quote That Shifted Everything
A few months ago, I read a quote that changed my perspective: “You are exactly who you think you are.” It’s simple, but it made me stop and really think about how I viewed myself.
I pride myself on being a positive person, but the truth is, there was a disconnect between who I said I was and what I truly believed I could be. That disconnect showed up everywhere, even in how I ended my day or prepared for bed.
You’ve probably heard the saying, “How you do one thing is how you do everything.”
I saw a pattern in myself that I needed to stop.
Right now, I’m in a season where God is developing me into the woman He wants me to be. Some call this the valley or the wilderness, but I call it preparation.
When Life Forced Me to Look at Myself
There are a lot of reasons I know this is a new season.
I lost my big girl job a few months ago.
I woke up one morning and realized I didn’t fully know myself.
I started journaling more.
And therapy revealed things about myself I genuinely didn’t like.
On the outside, I was thriving.
On the inside, I was running from myself.
I was half stepping everything; fitness, goals, friendships, self-development, doing just enough but never giving my full effort. That’s not thriving.
I had to ask myself: What was the last thing I fully committed to? I couldn’t answer.
So I decided: enough is enough. I wanted an extraordinary life but kept showing up average.
Sitting With Myself & Hearing My Own Voice
Have you ever sat with yourself and asked the hard questions?
We consume so many opinions every day, social media, conversations, work, TV, it becomes easy to lose your own voice.
I had to return to God to remember who He says I am.
I reread Ephesians, started the 100 Days of Believing Bigger devotional, joined Sarah Jakes Roberts Identity Course, and read Change Your Story, Change Your Life.
I needed new routines:
Less screens, more silence.
Less rushing, more stillness.
I’m usually always multi tasking., but this season is about being present. Even with my morning coffee, I try not to take it to go anymore. I sit down and enjoy it.
Routines, Fitness & Rebuilding Discipline
I looked at every area of my life and journaled about the woman I want to become; what I love about myself, what’s holding me back, and what needs reshaping.
My morning routine is solid. Waking up early and watching the sunrise does something for my mental. I feel my best when I follow through on my word and do what I said I was going to do.
Fitness became a huge part of rebuilding discipline. But I also learned that consistency looks different for everyone. I learned that my fitness journey can go beyond lifting weights.
Running became something I love; the “me vs. me” challenge. Then I started trying different fitness classes: Pilates(mat, reformer & heated), HIIT, and even outdoor classes. I accidentally took a trampoline class and loved it. I tried kayaking and hated it, but even that taught me something about my upper-body strength.
Trying new things forces me to be a beginner, something I usually avoid. It helps me not take myself so seriously.
Dating in My Late 20s… Differently
I started dating again, and wow… this season is new for me. It’s been pretty interesting.
I’ve never had a period of just dating. I normally meet one man and before I know it, I’m in a relationship or situationship.
This time?
No pressure.
No fantasizing.
No over-romanticizing.
I’m not taking things too deep.
Just learning myself; my likes/dislikes, my voice, my needs, my boundaries.
Honestly, I might even take a dating break soon so I can go all in on loving myself, but I’m waiting for God’s direction.
Saying Yes, Letting Go & Becoming Her
This is a season of exploring and getting to know myself.
Falling in love with who I’m becoming.
Praying, “God, help me see myself the way You see me.”
Life is too short to rush through.
I’m saying yes to new experiences and no to anything that doesn’t align.
I’m releasing old things; clothes, people, jobs, even old versions of myself. I’m trusting my gut. I don’t have to perform to be worthy, God handcrafted me before I was in my mothers womb. I’m shifting my dependence from myself and people back to God.
I’m done settling for average when God called me higher. This is a season of stripping away the layers the world placed on me and getting back to my God centered identity. Breaking cycles instead of repeating them.
Your Turn To Reflect
This isn’t just about me.
Ask yourself:
Do you love the life you’re living?
Do you love the person you show up as?
Are you truly ready for change? And willing to do the work necessary?
Don’t wait for the new year.
Start now.
You’re not stuck, you can shift.
Consistency is a love language to yourself.
Every day won’t be easy, but who you become will be worth it.
You’re the only one standing between where you are and the next level.
I’m excited for this discovery journey. And I’ll keep you updated along the way. You’re not alone.
